'Ello there! Hope you're doing well today m' friend!!

I am making a new account dedicated to my more expanding side. I know it makes NO since whatsoever so let me TRY to explain XD

On this account I feel like I am trying to live up to standards. I keep on trying to get faves and stuff like that and that's just pathetic in my opinion. I come back to this place so infrequently that when I look at my Deviations, I'm looking at 200+, and then it's no longer fun. Ditto with the messages. XD Also I feel that my expanding side needs to have some space. I feel like this account is more kid friendly. No I am not going into porn get your mind out of the gutter. -_- But I have some darker and more creative ideas, and I would like to have a good and not messed up place to express myself in/at. Not to mention that I've matured in my art work and I feel like it deserves a better account. XD

So to correct this heinous problem I have decided to make a new account for my ever expanding side!! XD This DOES NOT mean that I will never update this account. It just means that I won't update it as often, and that if you want to see more meaningful stuff then you'll need to go to my other account. XD I will re-friend everyone that I have friended on here (you guys know who you are) so that we can still keep track of each other.

And if you understood ANYTHING of what I just typed you are so totally my hero forever and I owe you a cookie!!

Ok!! Hi! I GRADUATED!!! I PASSED MY BLOODY MATH CLASS!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, now that we've gotten that out of the way....^^

Ok, so one of my friends pulled off some serious crap, and that finalized the relationship for me. I had been looking long and hard at our relationship, but that seriously was the deal beaker.

And then everyone (aka-adults) keeps on feeding me this bull crap about how I should pick a major that will get me some stupid money. YOU KNOW IF I CARED A THING ABOUT MONEY I WOULD HAVE DECIDED TO MAJOR IN SOMETHING I HATE!!!! (cause everything I'm passionate about pays crap XD)

And then if that wasn't enough there's all this other crap going on and it's just driving me straight up the wall and I'm wondering where the hell my parents are that they don't notice how much damn stress I'm freaking under!!!!

I seriously am going to snap and then my parents will finally give me a break!!!! -_-

On a good note: I know who my room mate is and she seems like she's really sweet. It's funny though because we're almost opposites! She's outgoing and REALLY good at math (taking a trig class!!) and has trouble in english, while I on the other hand am pretty shy/reserved and horrible at math, while I love english. XD Maybe we can help each other and that will be fun. ^^

I have many people to thank.
I would like to thank:

Rebecca for being her wonderful self, and for doing what is right, and for standing up for herself, and for taking such good care of me.

Sara for being such a smart, loving and loyal friend.

Caroline for being smart, for having the right reactions when I need them (I have no idea how you time it like that-but you just do now don't you?), and for being willing to share your advice.

Brenna for being so honest and real with me, and allowing me to be real and honest with you.

Holly for being so wonderfully you, and for being so loving, loyal and encouraging. Your prayers have gotten me through so much.

Zoklar for being honest through poetry, comments, and notes, and for letting me learn about you and letting me learn about myself at the same time.
I have become more human thanks to you all.

I have gone through hell for the past two weeks, and I'm still suffering a good bit. The Joker has been known to say that one bad day can make a person go crazy. And he's right in a way. But I have been so incredibly blessed by you all. You have kept me human, and real.

I was reading over my poetry, and I saw that I've gone from a pained, self centered, and terrified girl, into a human, caring and helpful human who can think outside of herself. If I can ever repay you, know that I'm here for you. You have made me human, and have kept me sane when I needed it most.

To be human is not to be a person. To be human is to breathe, love and live. And you all have taught me that. I owe you so much, and I love you all to death. If you ever need me, know that humans like you could never be a burden to me.



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Friends:
(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)


Clubs:

Ok, dude, I know it's April Fool's day but some people are now admitting that they want to have gender changes and that they're really guys in reality and that their dating a girl.
I don't have a problem with being honest and saying the truth and such, but DON'T DO IT ON APRIL FOOLS DAY 'K??? It confuses the easily confused masses. XD

I'm going to read their next journal post to see if they're being honest or what.

I totally wanted to pull the ultimate prank on you guys but then after reading those I was like "should I or shouldn't I?"

My English teacher told us that our paper that was due tomorrow would be due on Friday-And then she gave a crazed laugh of glee as she shouted "APRIL FOOLS!". You can bet that we were SO irked off at her and disappointed. But it made me laugh.

It was a good day today, and it's been that way for a while now. I got in my Mary Kay stuff today, and it's all body lotions, washes, and perfumes so the house will smell really good now. ^^

You know, for the past two weeks my life has kindda been hell. And then now looking back on it, seeing what happened, and knowing that I have friends that will help me bounce back, it doesn't seem so bad. I know I can make it.

Confession: I use Firefox. I'm a horrible speller, but because Firefox pwns ALL, I have a spell check-even when I'm surfing the net. XD Totally true. XD One of these days I'll write a journal entry in my own spelling and not correct it. XD

Urrm...I'll be posting some more poetry soon (hopefully) along with a funny short story that I'm writing. Gotta love my crazy characters. XD

Hurrrm...I wish I had more updates for you guys! But I don't have much more to say. So how are you all? I hope that you're all doing well. I also hope that you guys weren't silly gooses and fell for any April Fool's pranks. If you did tell me about them so that we can all have a good laugh. XD Don't worry, I'm completely gullible so you're not alone!

Oh! I'm going to try to enter into my club's contest, so wish me luck! (I hope I end up having the time to enter-blasted school work!)

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Friends:
(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)


Clubs:

I was amazed at how honest some one could be by just pouring out everything. So here's the good the bad and the ugly about me:


I am:
confident, scared, hurt, depressed, hopeful, friendly, fun loving, lonely, happy, insecure, in love, writer, poet, dreamer, secretly an actress, singer, good friend, lonely, misunderstood, easily hurt, abused, self abusive, over it, getting over it, wanting, needy, waiting, frustrated, over worked, overly stressed, confused, poor, living a double life, secretive, brutally honest, open, loving, overly protective of friends and family, too hard on myself, easily amused, easily confused, easily hurt, willing to get hurt, OCD, obsessive about certain topics, curious, helpful, willing, Christian, forgiving of others, stubborn, submissive, un-tame-able, horrid speller, avid book reader, wanting help, easily confused, lovable, brilliant cookie maker, psychic, choreographer, photographer, and quite possibly insane.


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Friends:
(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)


Clubs: