Bolded is the stuff that I could say and be completely honest in saying and meaning. Bolded and Italics are what really speaks to me and what I'm really talking about and plan to do.

Everybody's always talkin' at me
Everybody's tryin' to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talkin'
I need to count on myself instead

Did you ever
Lose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Did you ever
Push away the ones you should've held close
Did you ever let go
Did you ever not know

I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan
Will I find what I lost
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it (Bet on me)
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

How will I know if there's a path worth takin'
Should I question every move I make
With all I've lost, my heart is breakin'
I don't wanna make the same mistakes

Did you ever
Doubt your dream will ever come true
Did you ever
Blame the world but never blame you
I will never
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game if I can't play it my way

I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am (Who I am)
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan (That's my plan)
Will I find what I lost
You know you can (You know you can)
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it (Bet on me)
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

Oh, hold up
Give me room to think
Bring it on down
Gotta work on my swing
Gotta do my own thing
Hold up

It's no good at all
To see yourself and not recognize your face
Out on my own
It's such a scary place
Ooh
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do
Is believe

I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop till I get my shot
That's who I am
That is my plan
Will I end up on top again
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it (Bet on me)
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

yeah you can bet on me

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Ok. Yeah, sure. I know that you think your helping and I know that you are trying to help. But you're not helping. You will never read this, but I have GOT to get my priorities straight and this will help me.. Sadly, working for 'justice' is not part of it. Justice is not always right.

I'm fighting for what is right. I have lost sight of that and it has made my life hell! I am stuck between wanting to scream at every one or cry all the time. That's not healthy and I've been like that in the past and I'm not going back there.

I'm moving on.

I have lost sight of what's really important. Nothing that you can say or do-bring it on, come hell or high waters-will make me change my mind, or my position. I know where I stand. I have figured that out, and you sadly are standing on the opposite side. I cannot and will not help you. You have plenty of people to help you do that.

I'm going to rely on myself-if I must and I bet I will, I will fight-but I will protect my friends, my beliefs and those I love.

I am sick of playing some weird game where I don't know who the players are and what they want and so I live in fear. That is not my calling and that is not my life! I refuse to live like that. When I follow my heart, and when I'm walking in the Light, everything works out perfectly.

I have hurt my friends, I have betrayed myself, I have betrayed my friends I'm sure, and that makes me not only sick to my stomach, but infuriated with myself.

So I'm putting my foot down right here. I'm drawing the lines, and yes, you do have a jurisdiction, and I'm not a part of it. I am a free person, and I will live my life that way.

I will NEVER hand him over, and I don't regret that. I know what I'm doing is right. I know that I'm angry right now, but I also know that what I'm saying is more than just anger-it's the truth. I've been thinking and praying long and hard on this, and there's no other answer or option for me.

I'm drawing the line and starting over right here, right now. I'm gonna move on past this, and I'm going to keep to myself what I need to keep to myself. We can do it. I know that me and my friends and my family can do it. Bring it on, but I'm not going down-ever.

That you can bet on.

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(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)


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